Aspiring Writer

Vacation Time

2009-06-15T03:37:02Z

I have finally taken a vacation from work. I have an entire week off. Whoo hoo! So expect to see more chapters on all the stories I'm working on. yay!!!

Finally

2008-08-19T00:09:26Z

Okay so I finally ended the story the way I wanted to in SSU. I'm satified so on to Senior Year or perhaps I'll just write the grown up version of the gang ah...so many decisions...Should I write the Senior Year or the story that focus on them five years later?

Ending of Seneca State University

2008-07-22T21:19:54Z

I'm so not satisfied with the ending of SSU. I feel as if I could have done better and I know I will do better.

I'm Back

2008-06-18T17:31:38Z

So, after about a year of disappearing. I'm finally able to start my writing again. I realized that no matter how bad things are with me, it should never affect my writing. I tend to get so distracted over stress and worrying that I forget the main thing that keeps me grounded. Two of the most important things in my life are God and writing. Everything else pretty much comes second. So I made a promise to myself for the rest of this year to go back to dedicating myself to both of them. Oh, I also like to settle down with a good book and read too.

SSU

Laptop that I saved the later chapters 40 and 41 crashed along with my work. Talk about pissed off. So I had to start over with the writing. Things are still following along the same plot, however Paul won't be appearing until later on or maybe their senior year. However, I really would like to skip their senior year and just go on with their lives as adults. You know... I should have made this year their senior year.

SSU is a work in progress as I explained before. You are getting the new draft, not the final one for publication so what you read on fictionpress is probably going to change in the final draft, not a lot of major changes, but a few here and there, makes buying the book all the more exciting.

I Haven't Disappeared

2008-06-10T23:24:22Z

Hi...I know, I know you're wondering what the heck happened to her. Well, I haven't disappeared. Just started a new life...again with a new job. I know it's been quite awhile since forever as some might say. I am still working on SSU. Some of you are probably tired of waiting for the next chapter by now. Some are probably pissed off for waiting so long. And some, I know have probably given up on me. It's okay. I understand whatever your feelings are too me. It's been too freaking long! If you noticed I've taken away the last few chapters to rewrite them. I realized too much was happening too soon and making it slightly unrealistic and more like a tv soap. I don't want that to happen. When will the next chapter be out? Soon, very soon. In the meantime, I've started on a new story to get me back into the writing spirit. I'll probably change the title later because I know everyone has a title like this...anyway it's called Dark Angels.

Kat

Still Here

2007-06-22T07:59:14Z

Nope have not given up on my story at all. As of matter, I did a little writing on the next chapter tonight. Look for my stories every Friday. Although, I can't tell which one I'll be posting a new chapter to on Fridays. It's part of my plan to finish all the stories that I started. Don't be surprise if you see a new one popping up.

Here's a short preview of what's to come in the next chapter of SSU.

He was as handsome as ever in his tailored three piece suite which no doubt came from Armani. Even in college, Paul had always dressed as a business man or in some form of conservative clothes. He rarely wore jeans. He stood tall and proudly before them and those sharp dark eyes did not waiver from Brent’s threatening blue ones. Cathy couldn’t help but notice how different the two men she’d chosen to love were to each other. Paul had straight short black hair that he wore in a conservative style. Brent’s hair was untamable with wild curls. Paul was tall and lean built which made his body perfect for the suites he wore. Brent was tall and stocky. His clothes were never able to cover the bulging muscles in his arms and shoulders. Everything about Paul had been quiet and reserved, even when he was angry. With Brent, he had always been straightforward and upfront with his feelings, pretty much the way he was acting now.

“Paul,” Cathy said quietly. Brent’s arms pulled her close to him trapping her against his chest.

Paul stood his ground, his eyes staring coldly at Brent, although his words were to Cathy. “I wanted to see how you were doing.”

“She’s fine,” Brent answered for her.

He was angry. The past few days had been hell on him. Finding out about Cathy’s heart problem and dealing with Lee’s feelings towards Cathy had set him on the edge. As soon as one threat had disappeared another one surfaced. Paul. He’d rather deal with Lee; at least Lee didn’t have a history with Cathy. Paul was dangerous. He had been perfect for Cathy. They were almost exactly alike in the way they dressed, acted, and their interests, but Cathy didn’t love Paul, she loved him. He tried to keep telling himself that, but standing here before Paul brought back a lot of bad memories for him when he watched them together last year. It hurt then and it tore him up now. It was as if some unknown force was trying to take her away from him by any means possible. Lee was the first threat. Then, her heart condition became a new threat. Now, Paul standing here right after Lee had driven away.

Cathy could feel the tension in Brent’s body as he held her possessively to him. She really didn’t know what to do. She knew Brent was angry. She could feel it throughout his entire body which worried her. When Brent was angry, he was like a ticking time bomb that could explode any second.

“I believe Cathy is quite capable of speaking for herself,” Paul replied coldly. He did not like what he was seeing. They were together. It was written all over Brent’s body language. Why did he come back? Was it worth breaking his heart again? Cathy had always been unattainable to him even when they were together. There had a part of her she had held back. He had suspected Brent was the reason why he could never fully have her. Now, he had proof. He should have walked away. He should have….

Bleh

2006-11-30T21:54:32Z

So I guess you're wondering why I haven't updated on SSU. The distractions of life...job, new relationship, and living situation all taking away from my writing the greatest novel that ever existed. Yeah right. LOL. But anyway, I am trying. I got through two pages and ended up stopping. I'm working on the next chapter, just will be longer than I thought. I think I got a little writer's block on through out the middle of the chapter. Whenever, I get that way, I just work on my other stories until I can come back to the original one. Will there be a chapter out this Friday? I have no idea. I shall work on it while at work and see how it goes from there.

Your author,
Whisperingmoon

Finally Have My Laptop!

2006-10-20T16:33:51Z

Well people there certainly won't be anymore excuses for me to not write on my stories anymore because I finally got a laptop! Whoo hoo! *dances around* I'm sooo happy. Now I can like write while I'm in bed or in the park or on a long trip. Muwahahaha!

Whisperingmoon

An Inspiration to another novel

2006-10-05T19:25:52Z

There’s this guy I haven’t been able to get off my mind for a very long time. Our relationship is complicated and very confusing though. His name is Randall. I’ve known him since we were kids. His mother, at the time, was dating my father and she had a boy by my father. A half brother whose name is Elliot who I barely knew and I haven’t seen in several years now. Anyway, Randall was my half brother’s brother from another man. Hope that’s not too confusing. Randall was in no way related to me, but I’ve always seen him as a big brother compared to my little brother, Elliot who shared the same father as I did. Randall took the role seriously. He has always watched out for me, protected me, and made sure I was emotionally and mentally happy whenever he was around me. His family left when I was 12 and I didn’t see them again until I was 16. I spent the summer with them during that age before they disappeared from my life once again. The last time I saw Randall was when I was still living in Memphis, TN and my husband was in the process of finding a place with his new girlfriend while I was left at home to defend for myself. By that time Randall was 28 going on 29 and he’d lived a very hard life, harder than mine. He’d been almost everywhere in the U.S. Had lost most of his friends and loved ones by either traffic accidents or murder. For example, one was murdered in cold blood over a racial issue in the south. The guy was beaten, had two cements tied to his feet and tossed into a river where he drowned. This was the day before they were supposed to go on a trip together. He’d just graduated with honors from high school and had a major scholarship for a university. The other friend actually committed suicide by jumping off a bridge right here in the Bay Area. Randall also watched another friend get shot in the head and his brain explode all over him and the car they were in. His entire family was in a car wrecked and news was reported that they were all dead. However, it wasn’t true, they were alive barely, but alive. To say he’s lived a harsh life would be putting it lightly. So when I saw him in Memphis, he had changed from the sweet person I knew to someone dark, angry and completely out of hand. However, his feelings for me hadn’t changed. And he practically took over my life whether I wanted him to or not. I know it was his way of trying to protect me from my ex and the rest of the world also. But this dark side of him was something I was at lost to how to handle. It was a shock really to see him changed so much. There were times I had to beg him to not beat my husband to a bloody pulp and even then he ignored me. Thank God, my ex hadn’t been around when he came to see me or there would have been nothing I could have done to stop Randall. I think God had a lot to do with it too. For some reason, Randall was always missing my ex whenever he decided to pop over unannounced. No matter how badly my ex husband had treated me, I didn’t want Randall to kill the man. And I certainly didn’t want to see him or his adopted son, Jay, locked up in jail.

Oh yeah, Jay was the exact opposite of Randall, at least in outward appearances. He was thoughtful and sensitive whereas Randall tended to be irrational and overbearing. He had a wonderful sense of humor and was way beyond maturity for a young man of 18. I was completely shocked and surprise such a nice young man could actually exist. We connected instantly; especially when I found out we had a lot in common. Both of our mothers died, neither of us actually had a family and we liked the same games, music and movies. However, Jay was the same as Randall when it came to protecting something he cared about me. And he went right along with Randall whenever the concern of my well-being came up. And like Randall, I couldn’t talk him out of wanting to kill my ex also.

No one had ever defended me that way or even cared, so I began thinking of those two as my heroes. They made my life a little easier knowing that I had two very strong guys watching out for me even if no one else gave a damn about me. During that time, I believe Randall stopped seeing me as a little sister and began seeing me as a woman. I, however, wouldn’t let myself believe that he had those feelings for me. I kept seeing him as a big brother. He didn’t really say too much, but he did hint that there was the possibility that we could end up together. But even then, he wasn’t sure of himself. One reason was because I was still staying with my ex at the time and he thought I’d eventually go back to him regardless of the way the man treated me, as if! I believe things began to get extremely intense between us and emotionally he couldn’t take it. He was beginning to fall for me hard. I could tell because of the way he looked at me, his possessiveness when it came to me and the way the whole tension between him, my ex and my unhappiness was affecting him. He began not only taking it out on himself, but everyone around him too. One night, he and Jay just left me. They went to New Orleans to help repair houses. The plan was to go there and make a lot of money, send me money to get out of my situation and send his mother money also. But it didn’t work that way, he got there and lost contact with not only me, but his family as well. There weren’t any phone lines at the time, not even the cell phones worked. I was seriously hurt over this, heartbroken actually. At the time, I didn’t know about phone lines being down. All I knew was that another person that I had allowed myself to care about walked out on me again. I was angry. I felt betrayed and abandoned not only by my husband, but Randall as well. I didn’t blame Jay because I know Randall was a father figure/big brother to him. They were gone for several months. I didn’t think I’d ever hear from them again. During that time was the most horrible time of my life. That was when I went through the eviction, felt totally alone, and almost had to live in a homeless shelter. Not to mention everything else I’ve previously told you about in my other journals.

Now he’s back, not physically, but back nevertheless. He finally got a cell phone and the first person he asked about, so his mother told me, was about me. When he found out that I was not where he left me and that I hadn’t moved in with his mother, which had been what he thought would happen if I did leave my ex, he was highly upset. “What the hell is she doing in California?” Were his words to his mother. LOL Ah well. What exactly did he expect? That everything was would happen his way while he was gone? Men. So now what do I get? Trouble. He’s upset because he can’t protect me because I’m not in the south anymore. After what I’ve been through, I’ve found out that I’m perfectly capable of taking care of myself. Still he can’t see that. In his eyes, I’m still this sweet, innocent, naïve girl who needs to be protected from the world. That’s really romantic, really. But realistically, it’s not like that. Yet, I feel find myself constantly thinking about him. I often wonder if I’m in love with him or not. Or is it because I’m drawn to the way he seems to care about me so much. Still, if he did care so much, I often wonder why he never calls me. I hear from him like once a every three weeks and when I do, he’s trying to boss me around by telling me to take care of my health and threatening me to come here and make me go to the doctor. Suddenly, he’s telling me that he’s getting married next year, yet he has no girlfriend, isn’t even dating. Why would he tell me that? Unless he’s talking about marrying me. He’s also saying that I shouldn’t try to live in Seattle, he doesn’t want to live there. It rains too much for him. Once again…um…from what I know, I’m the one that’s going to be living there, not him, unless he’s saying we’re going to be together. Then he says he’s coming here in December to see me. And now he’s calling me BabyGirl and Love. Pet names he’s never used before. So the question is? Is he really trying to take this to the next level now that my ex is really out of my life or am I just reading too much into what he’s been saying? And, if he is, then why all the hints? Why don’t he just come out and say, hey…I think I’m in love with you and I want to be with you.

So why am I writing three pages about him? Well since I can’t seem to stop thinking about him, the only way I’m going to be able to deal with it, is to write a novel about him. It will of course, be fiction and paranormal. I’m into the paranormal these days. Actually, it will be a mixture of what’s happened to us in real life with fiction added into it. The reason why I’m making it paranormal or supernatural is because I tend to have those qualities, we both do. Something about myself, I will explain later and hope no one thinks I’m crazy, but I have always been born with the gift of prophecy. Every since I was a child I have always been able to see glimpses into the future, most of the times through dreams, other times through visions. This next story will be posted on fictionpress along with my other stories. If you’d ever like to read the others, here’s the link. I’m working on one right now about college life which I haven’t updated in a year. This is the one I’m getting published. All stories on fictionpress are just rough drafts, not the final work which means, there’s still quite a lot of work that needs to be done. However, the final drafts will be the ones that will be published.

http://www.fictionpress.com/~whisperingmoon

Update on My Life in San Leandro, CA

2006-09-19T17:28:41Z

Hey people I know it's been a very long time. A lot has happened. I got a great job that pays very well. I've moved into my own place and I am definitely enjoying life. However, I still don't have my own computer. I have to use the one at work, which I think is perfect until I can get my own. Hopefully, that will be soon. I saved all my chapters of SSU on a back up disk because I know it's been pretty much a year since I've last wrote. Hopefully you will be seeing a new chapter soon if you haven't forgotten about it lol. I know. Promises, promises.

Kat

Moved To San Leandro, CA

2006-08-05T01:50:58Z

Okay as soon as I trIed to start on my stories I ended up taking the greyhound to San Leandro, CA. This is ofcourse my new home now, at least temporary. I'm staying with a friend and I'm on her computer. So, I'll be using it to write on. I don't have my own computer anymore. I had to sell it for money to come here. Anyway, I shall continue to write although working 8-5 for five days, plus living with a very busy family and a one year old child will probably take a while for me to finish that chapter I've been working on since last month. I tell ya. Life sure does get in the way with things you need to do. I hope I can finish my story soon. I was suppose to finish this year. I'm talking about Seneca State University that is. I'm in California and I need the money! LOL. I'm going to search for publication companies while I'm here. It's time to bring out the big bucks, hopefully SSU will be it.

Katta

Update on Stories

2006-06-29T23:55:58Z

The Sequals to Human Compensation

Well people after careful considerations and lots of plotting and planning, I've decided to write the second part to Human Compensation. Actually it will be a second and third part all at once. The first story will focus on Rin and Sesshoumaru's relationship, how they first met. And the second story will focus on all the characters after Human Compensation. Muwahahaha *laughs maniacally and rub hands plotting.*

SSU
I've started on the next chapters to SSU and I must warn you that nothing has changed. They are still as intensed as ever and the plot has not weakened. Muwahaha Sorry people. I know you've waited forever sooo sorry.

Haven't Forgotten

2006-04-26T03:04:51Z

Hey people, I know it's been forever since I've updated on any stories, but I am slowly getting my life back together. I am impatient and ready to move on with my life instead of all this waiting around to see what happens. Because of this, my writing has suffered greatly. Once things get settled I will be able to write again. Seneca State University will be updated again, hopefully in May. I have been going back and forth to the doctors from specialists to general doctors about my stomach problems. I may end up staying here in Memphis for another year. Sheesh, I just can't get out of this tornado infested place. And, I am currently living with a wonderful man, that's the only good thing I can say. But through it all, I shall try to keep on writing cause that's what I was born to do, that and um...eat chocolate and drink pepsi. Muwahaha

Update on SSU

2006-02-02T22:46:53Z

Seneca State University

I've decided to revise Seneca State University. So I will be doing a lot of work, taking away, adding, editing, stuff like that. Heck it could have an entirely new plotline! Not really lol. Just going to make the changes I was making when I thought it was going to get published by that fake editor of mine.

Hmmm....

2006-01-20T03:28:20Z

Okay things are not going as well as I thought. Such as it goes in the world of Katta. I have finally found out my ex husband had been cheating on me the majority time we had been together. Heck, I actually talked to his girlfriend. I didn't see how he could do it, lie to my face everyday and say I love you and then be with her. Men are horrible sometimes. I knew he was cheating on me which was why I was planning to leave him, however it became a reality when I actually found out the other woman. Heck, I'm sure there were plenty before her. So right now I am going through a nasty seperation which is putting a hindrance on my concentration to write. I am still planning to go to Seattle, that has never changed. But right now I am looking for a job so I can get the heck out and find my own apartment as soon as possible. Then again there is always the offer to runaway to Colorado with a very dear friend. So many decisions, so much to do. My writing may be put on hold for awhile, but I suppose I will see if I can keep up even going through this crap.

Kat

Things Are Looking Up!

2006-01-08T07:38:02Z

Well people I must say that things are looking up for me in some ways. I will be travelling to Seattle in April. Yes! That's perfect too because my lease is up in April. We've already started making plans for our new life and trying to get a discount on airplane tickets. I'm going with an old friend that I haven't talked to or seen in ages. Funny how people just pop up in your life as soon as you think you can't take it anymore. I also believe I have found my soulmate. We think the same thoughts, want the same things in life and I don't know it's like meeting someone you've known all your life. Will this interfere with my writing SSU? Probably so, I'm sorry. Oneday when I'm in Seattle and settled in my new life. I will sit at my desk by the window of my house or apartment that overlooks the ocean and have enough time to write a long chapter every week. But for now, that seems like only a dream. I will be 30 January 10. I can't believe I'm entering a new timeline. Whoo! Well after my birthday, I will begin to write the next chapter for SSU. I have been writing on my fanfictions The Girl Next Door and 5010, but not SSU. You know, I may go back and do some re-editing on SSU, so you may want to read it over. As a matter of fact I may just spend the entire month re-editing the story instead of writing a new chapter, not sure about that though. I'll have to think on it. Okay big new years resolution. I will finish the darn story this year! LOL. Plus, I have plans to write new ones. I am still going through my Seasonal Affective Disorder, but it's been a lot more tolerable than last year. Oh and I finally got around to calling a few friends for Christmas Eve, people I had been planning to call when I got my cell phone, but never did. So I'm happy about that.

If there's one huge thing I've learned this year is not to hold on to people who constantly upsets me even if they are being nice. How can someone be nice and upset you? Well, for years, I've had the vast pleasure (sarcasm here) of being friends with people who are nice to me in my face and do a lot of sneaky things behind my back that they don't think I'll find out about. These people lie when confronted and continue to play these sick games through manipulation all in pretense of being my friends. I could never understand why people choose to act this way, but I have learned a valuable lesson from it. If you have a bad feeling about someone most of the time it's there for a reason even if you can't see it. So don't ignore the feeling, just leave the person that's causing it. Enough said. That's the biggest thing I've learned this year and it was really, really good for me because for once in my life I got a lot of peace instead of unnecessary torment and confusion of always wondering if I am wrong about what I think about certain people. If this makes me look like a bitch to some people ah well, you were the cause of it and you know what you have done. No this is not my Seasonal Affective Disorder making me post this...*humor* However I have adapted to the latest version of Freedom of Speech 9.0. Something I've decided to do more often this new year. So look forward to lots more updates.

Your Author,
Whisperingmoon

Stuff....

2005-12-29T20:43:02Z

5010

Well I was finally able to squeeze out the long overdue chapter 7 in 5010. I must say that personally, I am loving this story. *nods* I have so many ideas for it and it's going to be my main focus for a while. I plan to write the next chapter the first week of january. I know this story isn't as popular as Human Compensation and I hardly have any reviews on other sites, although it seems to be doing rather well on fanfiction.net. Yet, I am very excited about it and I can't seem to stop writing on it. When a story wants to come out. I have no control of it. It's like a whole new world to explore.

Seneca State University

I had stopped writing on this story for a very long time, but the next chapter will be out in January. So there are two stories I am definitely focusing on. SSU and 5010. I know I left everyone hanging on SSU. Heck some people have probably forgotten all about it. Ah well, I guess I'll see when I post the next chapter. Oh there will also be some major changes. Lots of editing and reposting chapters in the story so who knows. You may want to go back and read it over. I know that's asking a lot from all the chapters I got. But hey, who needs a life huh? LOL

Your authoress,
Whisperingmoon

New Story! The Girl Next Door...

2005-12-03T04:37:09Z

Okay, I know what you're all thinking. What the heck is she doing writing a new story when she has us waiting for the next chapters on the old ones? Well, it's been a while since I've posted anything. I know this sounds strange but, in order for me to continue to work on the old ones, I have to post a new one to get me excited. So, The Girl Next Door was posted tonight.

Why am I writing this story?

Well I can relate in a way. I may not know much about foster homes, but I do know that once they get a certain age they are released. I have always felt alone in my world, completely on my own and if anything really bad should happen, I really don't have anyone to turn to. So I wrote this story with Kagome facing the same problems. However, she won't be alone. There will be kind people to help her. The guys that live in the apartment are Inuyasha, Koga, Sesshoumaru, Miroku and Shippou. Each of the guys are very different, but they find something in common which is Kagome. Sango lives in the apartment too. She will be the only other girl Kagome will know. This story is about Kagome starting a new life for herself and establishing her place in the world. The world can be a very scary place when you're forced to deal with it, especially with little to no experience.

My seasonal affective disorder is really affecting the way I write, but I am pushing on and doing the best I can. It's rather hard for me to concentrate on anything lately and it may show in my writing. Hopefully, when I get over this and I'm myself again, I can go back and do a lot of editing and corrections to make the stories better.

Your author,
Whisperingmoon

P.S. I haven't forgotten 5010 and Crush. I will be finishing their next chapters soon

Roughdraft of Chapter 6 in 5010

2005-11-12T03:47:32Z

“Inuyasha!” The female voice echoed in his head filled with distress. Inuyasha knew it was Selene, his sister. “Come to the mansion.” She demanded.

“Are you hurt?” Inuyasha linked his mind with hers, his protective and brotherly instincts taking over. He knew Selene could take care of herself around her human friends, but there were much more dangerous creatures that lurked through the night on this naïve planet.

“No, not physically anyway. It’s Sesshoumaru. Can’t you feel his pain? I’ve never seen him like this and I’m afraid for him.”

Inuyasha stared down at the unconscious girl in his arms. He was about to put her in his bed when Selene interrupted. He didn’t usually link with his brother knowing Sesshoumaru valued his privacy above anything else. It annoyed him when Inuyasha pried into his head to find out what he was thinking behind that stoic face of his. However, Sesshoumaru allowed his sister more liberty, for some reason he felt more comfortable with her knowing his personal thoughts than Inuyasha. Inuyasha knew the reason, he couldn’t help but constantly tease his brother whenever he got the chance to see behind his mask. For that reason alone, Sesshoumaru had banned him from his thoughts, only linking with him during an emergency or when needed.

Still holding Kagome, Inuyasha closed his eyes and merged with his older brother. The pain he felt almost made him drop the girl in his arms. He held her tighter as his brother’s suffering washed over him. Sesshoumaru’s feelings were out of control. Anger, emptiness, helplessness, even guilt at not being able to protect the one he’d promised beat at his body and heart. Inuyasha quickly drew away from Sesshoumaru, noticing with uneasiness that Sesshoumaru hadn’t even noticed he’d been in his head. What had happened at the New Year Eve’s party that he had refused to go to that had changed his brother so much in one night? He was determined to find out everything.

The silk covers on the bed pulled back and spread out evenly with invisible hands. Inuyasha placed the sleeping girl gently in the bed and pulled the covers up to her neck. She would sleep until he returned. He was sure of it. But just in case, he ran his fingers through her hair noticing how silky the strands were and put her into a deep sleep. One she couldn’t awaken from on her own. Satisfied, he simply turned around and disappeared from the room.

Selene gasped when Inuyasha suddenly appeared right in front of Sesshoumaru. The mansion was empty leaving only the three there. Selene had quickly ended the party at the first clash of thunder in the sky, hoping to spare the innocent people from Sesshoumaru’s wrath. She planted in their minds that a sudden rain storm had caused the end of the party making them want to hurry home as soon as possible before it got worse. They didn’t want to drive home in such dangerous condition. Now she stood in the hallway, staring up at her oldest brother who she adored as much as the one that was frowning into frowning into face.

Sesshoumaru’s behavior was making Inuyasha very uneasy. His golden eyes stared right through him even as Inuyasha stood very close to his face. Sesshoumaru stood as still as a statue as the harsh wind blew in the cold rain and showered him through the broken window. This was not the brother Inuyasha had known all his life. This was not the person who could remain calm during a life and death situation. This was not the man who had his emotions under tight control. Inuyasha had always admired the way Sesshoumaru could radiate power and control the beast inside of him and make it look so easy. He could never have the quiet nature of his brother. He was too wild, too free with his emotions, violence and instincts. Even now as Sesshoumaru was clearly out of control, his face never changed its stoic expression. Nothing about him from the outside gave the appearance of a man in despair. His appearance would have been mistaken for a man standing there in deep thought.

“He won’t talk to me, Inuyasha. He won’t tell me what happened. He just stands there staring off into space. I tried to read his mind, but all I could see was a red haze. I am ashamed to say his feelings overwhelmed me and I left him in fear they would take over me too.”

“It’s okay, Selene. I will handle this. I’ll find out what happened.” He could feel his sister’s anxiety, her fear for Sesshoumaru, and immediately sought to comfort her in his own way. Sparing a glance and a smirk in her direction, he said in a matter of fact voice, “After all, you’re a female, and females can’t handle emotional problems. You’re too emotional yourself, you’d be no help to Sesshoumaru, probably make it worse.” At once he could feel her annoyance at him and see the images she entertained in her mind of kicking him in the shins over and over and over for saying such a thing. It had taken her mind off Sesshoumaru for awhile and that was good enough for him.

Inuyasha prepared himself and entered Sesshoumaru’s head fully merging with him. He battled through the intense emotions that threatened to consume him too. He had to keep reminding himself that these were Sesshoumaru’s feelings, not his own. Finally, the images began to flash before his eyes. He felt a mild disturbance as he watched and realized Selene was with him, using him as a shield from Sesshoumaru’s emotions as she watched the images along with him. He suddenly felt her leave, her warmth leaving him to face Sesshoumaru alone. So his brother had become fascinated with what he thought was a human girl? Sesshoumaru’s sudden attachment to the girl surprised Inuyasha. He knew his kind was capable of knowing any creature within a few minutes of their company, but he wasn’t prepared for the depth of feelings Sesshoumaru had for this girl he’d just met. That sort of attraction only came when his kind found their life mates and this girl was definitely not of his species. He’d even bonded her to him by drinking her blood and letting it absorb into his system bounding her to him until the day she died. He would know everything she did, where she went, her thoughts and feelings and his scent as well as his mark on her neck would let others know she was under his protection. All of his kind did this to the weaker creatures they held great affection for to keep them safe and protected at all times. Because it was a part of the mating ritual between two life mates to bond them together, it was rarely used on ones that weren’t life mates. And when it was, they were honored by the gift given to them. Sesshoumaru only had to mate with her to bind their souls together and blood bond with her again which consisted of her taking his blood as well as his seed, the very essence of him, inside of her to make her his life mate.

Inuyasha suddenly felt something grip him and hold him in place. He knew it was Sesshoumaru preparing to kill whatever invaded his mind. He was so lost in his grief, his didn’t even know his own brother. “Sesshoumaru! Get a hold of yourself. It’s me, Inuyasha, your brother!” He shouted and increased his energy to make him aware that he was in fact his own brother he was preparing to kill.

Sesshoumaru hesitated at the familiar sensation. “Why are you here?” He asked slowly, calmly.

“I came to bring you back to the real world. You lost yourself in here.”

“I lost her,” Sesshoumaru said hitting Inuyasha with his grief ten times worse than before. “I don’t know if she’s dead or alive. I can’t feel her. All I feel is emptiness.”

Inuyasha felt he would be sick if he didn’t leave soon. “I don’t know who ‘she” is, but you better get control of yourself before you destroy your own mansion and drive our sister crazy. She huddles in a corner about to go through her own insanity over the lost of her friend. She has seen what you have experienced and she feels what you feel.”

If anything brought him out of his trance it was the need to protect his sister. His kind were always very protective of their females. Mother, sister, aunt, niece, and life mate, it didn’t matter. The males would always protect the females from any harm, mentally, emotionally or physically. It was second nature to them. An instinct instilled in them since the day they were born. The females were considered much weaker than the males, and yet were honored for continuing to bring life in the world and keeping their rare species alive. Sesshoumaru as well as Inuyasha considered it their duty to guard their sister, especially since she had insisted in leaving her home to follow them to this foreign world.

Inuyasha felt himself pushed out of Sesshoumaru’s mind with such force that he stumbled backwards. Kicked out as he had been so many times before when he’d attempted to merge with Sesshoumaru just to annoy him. He shook his head to stable himself and looked up just in time to see Sesshoumaru standing over Selene who was huddled in the corner of the hallway crying softly. He growled hating to see his sister tears. He stalked his way out of the hallway, letting Sesshoumaru handle it. He was never good around a crying woman even if it was his sister.

“Stop crying and get up,” Sesshoumaru demanded in a voice that was not to be disobeyed.

“It’s my fault. Poor Rin. If I had known this would happen to her. Why didn’t I know? I’ve been with her for three years! I should have sensed something.” Selene looked up at him with big tearful golden eyes causing Sesshoumaru’s usually cold heart to ache. Putting aside his own grief over their lost, he gently took her arm and lifted her to her feet. “You will stop crying this instance.” He demanded.

Of course, she didn’t listen to him. She never did. Instead, she wrapped her arms around his waist and cried even harder on his shoulders. Sesshoumaru stiffened suddenly looking around for Inuyasha for help even though he knew Inuyasha would have ran if he’d been in this situation. Women rarely cried around him. They were either too busy trying to get him in bed or was too afraid to come near him. Selene rarely cried around him. She usually fought back and challenged them whenever she was hurt or angry at them, but she rarely cried. Sesshoumaru raised a hand and awkwardly patted her back trying to comfort her.

“It was not your fault. The thing that took Rin was born a few minutes ago. Before then, she was a normal human.” A normal, beautiful, perfect, little human, Sesshoumaru thought. He wouldn’t loose such a rare being. The darkness in him called out to the sweet innocent light inside of her. It called out to her soul to save his. “We will find her. If I have to turn this world inside out, we will find her Selene. This I promise you.”

Inspiration is back on 5010

2005-11-10T19:09:55Z

The other night I wrote three wonderful pages to the next chapter of 5010. I plan to write three more today and then post it tommorrow night. The problem is thinking of a title for the next chapter. Not quite sure.

Plans for the next chapter are subject to change at the last second, but here they are.

1. Sesshoumaru will be dealing the lost of Rin.
2. Inuyasha will be keeping Kagome with him who's going to fight him every step of the way.
3. All the main characters and supporting characters will meet together in this chapter.
4. Readers will be finally told what Inuyasha, Sesshoumaru and Selene are as well as Miroku.

Your author,
Whisperingmoon

Ran Off By A Storm...

2005-11-06T10:09:49Z

So, I was sitting here tonight prepared to write the next chapter to 5010 and Crush on fanficition.net. Suddenly, the weather bug on my computer starts flashing warning about a severe thunderstorm. Okay, so I didn't think much of it. It was just a storm. I could still write. As soon as my fingers began to race across the keyboard lightning began to light up my window. At first I didn't pay it much attention because it wasn't close so I continued to try to write. However, the lightning actually started getting brighter and the streets lights suddenly went off outside. By that time, I was feeling very uncomfortable sitting by the window with my computer. But still, I decided to brave it and was determine to write something down after almost a month. I mean I finally get great ideas and finally get my inspiration back and I wasn't going to waste it. Then my weather bug started flashing again, this time...something about a tornado. Okay...as much as I love my writing, I'm not that stupid so I ran away... Now that the storm is over. I have lost all my ideas and I am once again stuck! GRRR!

Pissed off,
Kat

Oh by the way, as I was sitting here writing this when Colbalt Dragon review pops up in my email. In response, I'll admit that when I first read your review I was offended. It wasn't really the review itself, but the tone you used seemed arrogant and critical to the point it came out negative towards me, which ofcourse prompted me to respond to everything you said. However, I do thank you for taking the time to review at all. I actually did respect your review and I did agree with you on some of the things you pointed out. So yes, you did help me in improving the story by pointing out a few things I didn't see at first. I did feel that some of what you wrote was just your opinion, but by all means I didn't mean to offend you. I accept your apology and I hope you accept mine.

Your author,
Whisperingmoon

Cobalt's Dragon response to me

Dear Katta,

I guess everything's coming out roses eh? I certainly
hope this means that we've reached an understanding
and we can put this horrible miscommunication behind
us.

I humbly accept your apology and I guess that what you
said was definitely true. In the future I'll try and
write less... conceited reviews. I guess that while
criticism is good, I wouldn't like to have me telling
myself things that don't help AND make me sound like
an ass.

Best of luck with the publishing as well, and here's
for hoping you get some inspiration soon!

Sincerely,
CobaltDragon

Response: LOL Well, I don't know if he's new to this or not, but hey you know I respect people who can look at themselves without getting defensive and selfish over their mistakes. Who are willing to learn from their mistakes, to me that says they want to be a better person. I know I am always willing to learn from my mistakes once people point them out. He could have responded back angrily, told me to go to hell, or not responded at all. I'm so use to people acting this way when I speak my mind on things. I rarely meet ones that are actually mature. I am hoping to get my inspiration back for what I called one of my greatest original works I've written since the fanfiction, Human Compensation. Thank you.

Your author,
Whisperingmoon

New Journal

2005-11-04T03:53:00Z

This is my second journal that's for stories only. I still have the original journal about my personal life and the old posting about my stories, but I decided to make a new one strictly dedicated to my thoughts, plans and descriptions of every story I write online.

If you've been checking on fictionpress, you probably noticed, I haven't updated for awhile on Seneca State University. SSU probably won't be updated for awhile because of the argument and confusion I had with my so called editor. She tried to change the story and who the characters were because she thought that it would attract more readers. I like their original personalities, they wouldn't be my characters if I changed them just to fit the people's interest. I'm not selling out. Anyway, she made something I enjoyed writing on into something that irritated and annoyed me. Until I get over being upset over the entire ordeal, I will not be writing on SSU for awhile. Then again, with the moode swings I've been going through because of Seasonal Affective Disorder, I never know what I'm going to do when it comes to writing. My mood swings are horrible around this time. One minute I'm positive, happy, have lots of energy and the next I'm depressed and can barely stand. My biggest problem is when my mind keeps wandering into a lost void and I loose track of time, it's rather scary when it suddenly turns 3 a.m when I thought it was 1 a.m. Usually when I say I'm not going to write on it, I find myself writing the next chapter, and when I say I will write on it, I don't... In other words, just keep checking for an update every once in a while.

I deleted the original 5010 from fictionpress and decided to go with the Inuyasha version on fanfiction.net. It's just much more interesting to me and for some reason I'm really into it now, instead of SSU. I suppose it's just a break I'm taking from SSU and writing something new until I can come back to my college story. I haven't given up on getting it published. I will write on it again and I am determine now more than ever. It's weird how I work. People who try to bring me down or mess with me in a negative way only give me more strength to try harder, once I get over it.

I don't know if any of you read the response to the reviews I wrote in my last journal on the recent chapter of SSU so I copied and pasted them on here again. And thanks for the reviews everyone!

Aries: aww it's so sweet, almost cried, plz update soon, kinda wanna hear more about seira and luke.

Response: Yes, Sierra and Luke will be mentioned in the next chapter although very briefly. However, they will be appearing again in the sequel.

city-gal7: u know...i REALLY don't want Lee to go away...i'll miss him! and really Shenequa? what is the matter with her? telling Cathy that Lee orgasmed on Cathy's name??...ew, too much details man! hope u update soon.

Response: I don't want him to go either! But it's something that must happen in the story. Lee will return in the sequel. He will also keep in touch with Cathy while he's away. Yes, Shenequa can be...*blinks* well, Shenequa lol. Believe it or not, I have family members who act like her. Let's just say I based her off one of them. Yes, it was way too much detail, especially while she was trying to eat. I agree with you.

Anonymous: lol...nice sotry.here...at last u updated ...been waitin too long..glad they got bac together...cathy n brent the best..the story..veri detailed...but too short...??

Reply: I’ll try to make it longer next time lol.

Dizzydesi: I just got done reading the chapter. It is fantastic. A few missing words, but i still loved it. Man, it's torture waiting for the next chapter to come out. Where are Lee and his sister going? Isn't she still with ? (I forgot his name) Man, i think about this story in sleep at times. Keep up the good work.

Response: I know I take too long, it seems like I can only post a chapter once a month. LoL. But hey, at least it’s not once every four months anymore.

Ebony: yer it was goodi understod why cathy didnt tell brent. so what is happening with the book? have you been asked to publish it? next time you post a chapter if you have any info can u tell me pleace? thanks heaps

Response: I have an editor and yeah we were going for the publication this month, but if you read above it pretty much answers your question. I suppose I was trying to get ahead of myself and rush into things like usual. Must learn to have patience. This is where I found an editor. http://www.writersmarket.com/index_ns.asp

Zenbabe: Wow, that was definitaly worth the wait! This story is amazing and I think it's great that you're trying to get it published. You're an incredibly good writer. Update soon!

Response: Thank you! The publishing has been pushed aside for now though. *sigh* But, I will publish it. I’m not the type to give up so easily.

Celene: I'm glad to see another side of Brent. It's nice to know the overconfident, bossy giant has a weakness and can cry! This chapter was very touching. You did a wonderful job on it. Keep up the good work!

Response: Thank you, Brent has a weakness and it’s Cathy lol. He’s pretty much in control over everything else except when it comes to her.

Cobalt Dragon: One of the first things I noticed about this story is the fact that you are extremely long winded and focus entirely on character development

Response: Yes, that is true. This is not an action story. It’s completely about the development of my characters.

As such, your characters feel like real people, but the situations they end up in often give a very surreal, unimportant vibe.

Response: The real/surreal vibe is exactly what I’m going for, good for you for noticing. For example, the story itself could be real, but the things Sierra does makes you question the reality of it. Can someone be like her? Can someone actually have the powers she seems to possess. You never know… As for the unimportant vibe? Well, I suppose that’s just your opinion.

On the flip side of the coin, don't give some situations undue gravity or tone- like Cathy's heart problems- and then never explain why.

Response: The explanation of Cathy’s heart hasn’t come up yet in the story because I haven’t finished writing it. You are judging from the few chapters you’ve read so far. My readers, like the characters in the story, will learn along with the characters in the story about Cathy’s problem. After all, she has been keeping it a secret from everyone.

I'd recommend that you keep up your character development, but focus more on the gravity and truly earth-shattering seriousness of the tale you're telling. Don't let yourself stumble when you're writing this, because while character development is great, unbalanced situations are not.

Response: I’d recommend you go back and read the entire story before writing to me again. It seems like you just read a few chapters or just scanned over the entire thing and then tried to give me constructive criticism. I’ll admit while the story is not perfect in the least and it is still the rough draft that I post, not the full or completely edited version, I believe the balance between character development and plot of each character is working quite well. As I said before, it is not finished.

Also, at the beginning, you barrage readers with the most ungodly huge pantheon of characters and then slowly drag them out. I enjoyed the fact that you had such a rich cast of characters and all, but it was really hard for me to keep with you as all of these characters got flung my way in a short chapter.

Response: The first chapter introduces the main characters. The next couple of chapters introduce the secondary characters. However, there is some truth in what you said. For instance, Tyrese, I wrote about his relationship with Dana and then slowly stopped writing about it. I realized I needed to go back and either take it out or continue to write about him in the next chapters.

Your focus in the beginning is also very wild, introducing characters like Chris in the First Chapter- which made me think that they were going to be much more important than they actually were. And of course, Chris is now my favorite character... :)

Response: I’ll have to say you’re completely wrong in this one. Chris is a very major character in the story. His quiet personality may make it seem like he’s not, but if you read the entire story, you would see that your favorite character is mentioned quite a lot, especially in dealing with his relationship with Kiara. Once again, I haven’t finished writing the story for you to say that.

But all in all, I found that while you sometimes dropped the ball in writing, your story has heart and all it really needs is some cleaning up.In conclusion, keep writing! I really enjoyed this story and I hope to see more of it.

Response: Perhaps some chapters did linger, perhaps some chapters were not needed and yes it does need cleaning up. Doesn’t every newly written story? Most of the things you said were not constructive criticism, but just your opinion, and only showed that you did not read the story through or perhaps just scanned over it and didn’t get a true understanding of it. I know some people try to find something negative to say about someone’s work and disguise it as if they’re only doing it to help. Hope you’re not one of them. Either way, good or bad intentions, thanks for the review.

Becxfok01: This was such a sad yet sweet chapter. I guess the right word for it is sort of bittersweet. I sort of understand why Brent went so mad but he should have stayed with Cathy. But anyways, I was so happy to see an update! Can't wait to see what happens next. cheers.

Response: You’re right, he should have stayed with her, but you know how people are when they get emotional. They just don’t think about how their actions will affect the other person. Thanks for reviewing!

Miss Nikki: Sorry I haven't reviewed in a while. I've been in bed sick the last three days. So here I am. This review is just to let you know I haven't forgotten about you. I have to go, but expect a full length review starting from chapter 35.
Love Nikki

Response: Hey girl, nice to hear from you again. I’ve been sick the past few days too. I’m still waiting for those full length reviews lol.